Frustrated

It has been a long time for me to feel frastrated
even since i hand in my thesis, i am kind to relax to everything.
until recently i start to write my study plan for my ph.d program
guess what
huge trouble
huge huge trouble
not only did i find it difficulty to focus on correct structe of my paper, but also i
am unable to use correct grammer
in other words, my writing is becoming from bad to worse. AGAIN
comm'om~~~~~~~~
after talking to Prof. Lin, I really feel scared about the coming Ph.d entrance test
am i able to pass the exaM?
am i qualified?
am i good enough?

I hope i am
I wish i am
I expect i am